FESTIVE SEASON

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

MAY GOD BLESS U ALL!!!!

XOXO

Im Torn Between Two Group Of Peoples

I Like Him...

I Cherish His Parents...

And His Younger Brothers Too...

But This Little Girl.... *sigh*...

I cannot satisfied HER every need...

Decision In MY Hand....

Why should i take HER into my Consideration???

Who Is SHE think SHE is...

I Would Like To say...

Get A Life!!!!!!

I've been your age once...

And I know how it's feel...

What with the swearing????

And what with the "I am The Children of GOD thingie???"

Swearing and Praising just doesn't mix u noe.....

Sometimes it keeps me wondering?

Where did i done wrong...

Is it because i didn't met her every needs?

if that is the case...

I'll be damned....

So,

I Decided...

I have Decided...

Why should I Go There When I Dont Feel Like being there...

It's suffocating me...

So,

Im saying GOODBYE to the spoilt brat...

Whoever it is.....

SPINNING AROUND: I'm tired of her

Worries

I started this week with so many things running thru' my mind......

Work......

Love.....

Family.....

I started this week with a negativity that this week is one of the *HELLISH* week that i decided i will be buried 6ft underneath it b4 the week even ended....

I was really down...

I feel hopeless...

Once again, miracle happens.....

I've made it through....

I'm back to the right path...

To the correct mindset.....

How can i describe how THANKFUL i am to my LORD

He will never leave me or abandon me

He will never put me in a test that I CANNOT sit...

This is the month of advent..

One of the holy month in Catholic churh...

The month where wait for the coming of our Saviour Lord Jesus Christ

The month of where we will wrap up our life story for the year of 2009...

The month where we will see....

The answers that we've been looking 4 all these while....

SPINNING AROUND: GOD knows BEST!

The Down Time

This Morning i accidentally reversed on my colleague's car...
I scratched his car upper tyre cover...
Luckily I didnt scratch any body paint
But My mud trap bumper was loose...
WTH!!!

then during driving to lunch with my other colleagues..
i nearly hit a 3 tonnes lorry..
it was my way but still the word "nearly" still scary...
My male colleague asked me to stop and let him drive the car..
My mind was absolutely somewhere else.....

I know everything will go to where they are belong...
I came to the point where i cannot receive anymore.....
I need the word STOP..
I need the RED LIGHT...

I'm only 1 PERSON..
I cannot satisfied everyone.....
When sometimes i also cannot satisfied myself....
Put THEM first or ME first.....
*sigh* *sigh*

I dont 1 2 hurt any1 feeling..
I'm not a kid anymore that act based on my *short term* mind
But what if when I'm being ME, that when I hurt their feelings....
Should i ACTING happy in front of them even that's not my real feeling???
Should I Be One Of The HYPOCRITES????

I dunno...
Too many hearts to take care...
But who's going to take care mine?????

Nevermind....
Like i always says to myself...
I'm stronger than I thikn I am....
Coz i know in every ways i take... every paths i crossed...
HE, MY LORD will always be my side.....
Hand in Hand....
Giving me strength to PASS it all...
Hurt and Bruised...
But still alive in the end to tell everyone that i make it through once again.....

Happy Advent

SPINNING AROUND: To My Catholics friends, Do Not Forget To Go 4 Confession @ ur nearest church!.. <3

LANGAU=LALAT=FLY+ came from giuk and eat rubbish....

When i was still a kid, it's mom and dad who decide everything for me....... Like what i shud be wearing... which school should i go..... how much money per week...eventho' i hates the gown that my mum bought me, i dont have any other choice eventho' i loathes it... and even i ask my dad to buy the "it" shoes that had been "the talk" in the school, my dad choose to buy me the cheapest one.... when i was in 2ndary three, i asked my parents 2 give me permission to live in hostel... they said "ok".... anyway, i've been living independently with my siblings since primary two... so, it's no big deal for me being a hostelite..... then after PMR, i got bored with the school... and got bored with the same old routine in my hometown.... so, once again i asked my parents to let me further my higher 2ndary school @ Teknik Likas... they said ok..... so, here i goes...studying in SMT likas 4 2 years..... The point here is, in my life taking decision, i never put my parents aside.... eventho' i disagree with them sometime, they never control my ability to makes decisions.... if my decisions may seem "NOT OKAY" in their eyes..they will try to help me to make it OK by sharing their opinions...... So, even now, even i'm matured enuff to makes my own decisions, i always refer to them.... ALWAYS...... coz they are the pillar of strength in my life..... and as for my very close friends...what i like about them are, there always there to share their experiences when i need them... THEY didn't ask me to do this or that..... OR nor trying to plan my life according to their wills.... That's why i treasure my closest friends.... So MUCH!... but lately, there are this group of people who have been trying to PLAN my life according to THEIR so called THE PLAN FOR A GOOD LIFE.....i was like "HELLO!!!!! May I know WHO YOU ARE"... Me and them are not even close..... "NO...NO...NO..."...... Who The Heck are they to ask me to do THIS and THAT in my life.... Did i ask 4 their HELP???? I didnt recall one!!!!!....... So, please STOP doing that ALREADY... WASTING your time and BIHIS only..... Coz i didnt need it anyway... I've already have a troops of MY MOST TRUSTED PERSON in my CARE so another one of you is NOT NEEDED... and please, STOP being judgmental, coz it is so annoying like a LANGAU=LALAT=FLY+ came from giuk and eat rubbish....

We Can Always make It Through!!!!!!

personally, this week have been one of the challenging week in this year... when i was still holding the position of an engineer, end of the month is the month where all th FM & SFA claims need to be prepared ASAP... but now, end of the month mean i have to go here and there (papar & penampang) to get all the claims signed before the deadline.... TIRING.... STRESSED (furthermore when the DE being so uncooperative)...... sometimes i feel defeated and want to QUIT!!! But, i told myself.. this day will pass just like any other day and 2moro is going to be a better day..... All i need is perseverance...and i did.... THANKS GOD..... Finally, the claims are signed..... One thing i'd learned, GOD wont put me in a situation that i cannot handle.... I TRULY BELIEVE THAT!!!!! Life is a lesson of trials and errors..... If you can't make it today, there's always 2moro for a 2nd try....Gain experience in life rather than saying "WHY ME?WHY ME?" Qs.... and FYI, there's more people out there who's more unlucky than us.... NEVER GIVE UP is the key... FIND A GOOD FRIENDS to share the burdens..... and PRAY TO GOD for the STRENGTH... IT DO WORK!!!... TESTED & PROVEN!!!! "HAPPY ADVENT MONTH!!!!

I'm Tired

I dont 1 2 complaint..

I mean i try not 2 complaint TOO much...

But this JOB is tiring me......

How long has it been since i took a very-very-very long vacation...

I'm not sure....The last 1 i remembered was in June... A journey to Sarawak

Early June.....

*sigh.... 6 months ago!

I hope my body and mind can hold it up until christmas...

So i can celebrate my christmas with my love one...

HAPPILY!!!!!